I become.. who i don't want to be

Am i too much? sometimes i wonder, why i became too much mad or angry for those people who hurt the persons i love.. and most of the time i can't accept the fact that they can easily forgive those who hurt them, i mean, despite of pain and everything that they did, mapapatawad mo agad, at kakalimutan mo nalng ang mga nangyari! i don't understand! actually, i, myself don't understand why i became like this, although i never fight or did something wrong to those people i hate, hindi ko nakakalimutan ang mga nangyari, ang ginawa sa kanya, or nagawa sakin, i just can't forgive them, i will always be in my mind and in my heart.. but.. honestly, i try to not be like this, i dont wanna be like this, be mad and angry easily! can't forget what they did, it's not healthy, not nice, it can't help me become a person that God's want me to be.. i wanna be awake before its too late.. so help me God!