Things that i want you to know and i want to know!

I was thinking of the real meaning of love! do i know the real meaning of what we so called LOVE? I know love you.. you're the only person that i really love.. but come to think of it! i really love you.. enough for me wait and accept you from who you are and what you have! but, why is that i can live without you? my life can still run without you,.. hindi ako namamatay kapag nawawala ka! hindi rin ako nasisira ng pagkawala mo sa buhay ko!I can stand straight without you.. not just stand but grow enough to achieve my goals in life! i maybe not that happy coz your not around, but still I'm happy and blooming much more without you! so, is that love?? Masaya ko pagkasama kita.. pero hindi ako malungkot pagwala ka.. mahal ba talaga kita???.. o yun lang yung pagkakaalam ko.. naisip mo ba yun? alam mo ba yun?

First real love

Now i know how it feels when the person you love left you for someone who they really love.. its true that they love you! its just their much inlove with someone else.. ang sakit diba? mahal ka nga pero hindi gaya ng pagmamahal nya dun sa una.. tapos ayaw ka nyang mawala hindi dahil mahal na mahal ka nya.. kundi ikaw nalang ang meron sya.. napakaselfish diba? but there are times.. kahit alam mo ng lahat yun, nagbubulag bulagan ka! kasi mahal mo.. mahal na mahal mo.. pero kahit gaano mo sya kamahal.. kapag sobrang sakit na.. yun tipong maliit na hiwa lang sa daliri napaka sakit na.. at ayaw pa tumigil ng dugo! tapos mag-iiwanan pa ang marka kung gano to kasakit! susuko ka rin! titigil ka rin sa paghihintay, tatanggapin mo rin ang katotohanang hindi kayo ang nakalaan sa isa't isa.. Yeah its hard to accept the fact lalayuan mo o tuluyan mo ng tatalikuran ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao, hindi dahil hindi mo na sya mahal, kundi sugatan ka na sa sobrang pagmamahal mo sa kanya kaya ayaw mo na.. ang masakit pa, hindi ka rin naman titigil sa pagmamahal sa kanya.. lalayo ka lang! patuloy mo parin syang mamahalin at gaya nya.. wala ka ring ibang higit na mamahalin gaya ng pagmamahal mo sa kanya.. Gaya ng nararamdaman nya sa una, yun ang nararamdaman mo sa kanya, at yan din mismo ang nararamdaman ng taong ikaw ang unang minahal ng lubos..

Here we go again!

There he goes again! Calling, texting... asking if i were ok! (As if I'm not when left me!) If he only knows.. I'm not miserable just like how he thinks! I'm even more stronger than i was before! More healthy and sexy! hahaha! and come to think of it.. sya pa talaga nagtatanong kung ayos lang ako? If im not mistaken he was the who is leaving in a stupid life! Patapon ang buhay! at hindi ako.. Anyways, I don't wanna here anything from him.. I did not answer his text, even his calls.. I don't want him in my life! Ayoko sya makausap, nararamdaman kong hindi maganda ang lalabas ka bibig ko! and for sure.. hindi nya magugustuhan yon! saka iniiwasan ko ng magsalita ng maganda! so sana.. tumigil na sya hanggang kaya ko pang hindi sagutin ang tawag nya! Stupid!